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This is a story about bleeding blue








with sincere appreciation to
Thuyen Ngo @nhonnct12
Joshua Jang @shiko.wav
Madison Hooper @madisonxhooper
Tommy Park @tombo.97
Christian Dillard @playknows
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@waterandpower_life

I used to think there would always be more time. not in any specific way, but just having faith in that there would be a later.


later for showing up properly for the things that actually matter, for doing it right, to fix things, to say it.

A later to become someone else.

and the problem is,
most days, nothing ever felt wrong.

thats because the choices that really mess you up dont feel like mistakes when youre making them. 

they just feel like normal days. A skip here, push there, telling myself id get to it. 

and I actually believed that.

when ben and Charlie passed away, it wasnt the loss itself that sunk me down.

it was seeing the pattern, realizing how I had been moving this whole time. What I chose, what I didnt, and what that actually added up to now.

no one and nothing took anything from me even if I wanted to believe it did.

the war didnt take away my friend, and the illness didnt take away my pup.

truth is I built it like this. I took myself away from the both long before.

and there was the violence.

it’s me understanding my own decisions after they’ve already become permanent. 

I wanted to start making choices that didn't feel natural and go against how I usually make decisions. Thats the anomaly. 

because the way we normally live.. it drifts and avoids. It delays the things that actually matter, and it does it in a way that feels completely fine while it’s happening. 

but I dont trust that anymore.

baby blue is a color I would never choose and thats why I chose it for this collection. 

every piece is me going against myself, interrupting the pattern, not waiting until it feels right because it never will. 

these objects are part of it. they are the decisions, the corrections, the moments where I could’ve gone back to what was easy, but didnt. 

the way you move on a normal day..
thats what your life is made of

and if you dont interrupt it,
It will decide everything for you.

Story behind the story 

Blue anoma[lie] is a project about correction and the cost that lead up to it, then the cost after. it’s me realizing after the fact that the worst damage was patterned, a choice, but more accurately the absence of choosing. So the “anomaly” isn’t the loss, it is the person I’m trying to become afterward, and the choices I want to make that deviate from what id normally do. the ones that lead up to these devastations only after its too late. For a moment blue stops being a color and becomes a rule, a kind of resistance against the person I become when left unchecked. It’s strange because I could believe it and I couldn’t all at the same time and thats as honest as I can be about the whole situation. Like driving with a nail in the tire, obviously I knew it would bust one day but never actually did anything about it while it was happening, I just kept driving knowing everything was fine for now, 

And then one day it wasn't. Yet the worst part isn’t the tire bursting but realizing i had every chance to pull over while it still mattered.

There are many objects we keep around just for their looks..
But only a few remind us what to do in our day to day lives.